linuspiknik

Summer comes with light

violates the sphere of night

a soothing season but can't heal

the wounds of dark is too real

 

All the things I set out to be

died deep inside of me

so the winter claimed my heart

'casue it was frozen from the start

 

With a heart of solid ice

and a soul of northern snow

with cold sparkeling skies

The winter is all I know

 

And as a victim of the cold

I accidently invited darkness

carefully hidden, I was sold

It fed upon my emptiness

 

Moonchild lost in the bright of day

confused she is, can't find her way

so make a choice and start to run

find your way out of the sun

 

The rays of light haunted her eyes

The wind chased her ears with sighes

chained her in the light of day

to the ground as fallen prey

 

they told the dark was to claim

her restless soul without a name

then chased her back into the night

she ran 'til she was out of sight

 

Don't fear the dark my dear

there is nothing there to fear

but the dark side of your own

the unwanted side unknown

 

as the children of the dark

there will always be a spark

of hope in our unhealed scars

we are the children of fallen stars

 

so bite your filthy tounges

and hide within your wrecks

'cause we were those who hung

with ropes around our necks

 

 

 

 

.........................!

 

 

© Linus Piknik

You are abandoned, I'm deserted

I'm your opposte, you're me inverted

so perfect in our imperfection

that's the root of our affection

 

I'm a wound you're another

opened we meet each other

two astray children way off course

bound by the same strong force

 

we are one when we meet

you are making me complete

you another restless soul

well-filled with a black hole

 

we are so different but still the same

we're wictims of remorse and shame

I cut, you bleed

I write, you read

 

We are key pawns in each others' game

we are the ones without name

I'm wrong, you're right

I read, you write

 

I love you for what you are

but another fallen star

so let's just leave it as it is

it can't get any worse than this

 

© Linus Piknik

 

 

to that last entry of mine, the Lapponian Herder was singning in his sleep this morning.....

is a cartoon I never really liked, except for that episode with the Little Red Riding Hood as guest star!

 

I have two stupid dogs living with me and my family! They've always been al little weird, the oldest one, a Dachshund at age fourteen, he died this spring. Had a thing for marking territory inside, naturally where you walk, which is why I stoped matching my socks! I simpley had'nt time to look for the ”missing partner” of the socks a hundred times because you accidently stepped in his.... when you run around like crazy in your normal morning rush. He also liked to see how much he was in charge of the family by standing infront of the door and bark! Barking, and barking.... until someone finally couldn't stand out with his barking any more and let him out. When you had closed the door he used to turn around and started barking again! Until someone opened the door to let him in! He could spend the whole eavning doing that! Especially if his caretaker, my stepfather wasn't home......You see he wanted to go to bed and his caretaker was going to go to bed at the same time, that was the normal order and it was not to be broken, and if it was, and his caretaker refused to come home when he was calling for him, our Dachshund could spend a whole night barking and barking! Luckily we live on the countryside...................................

 

Anyway he died this spring, he caused himself a heart attack actually! How ironic! Not barking outside the door, as you may think! You see he had a thing for being angry with one of our other dogs the Lapponian herder. He was always trying to pick a fight with him, a much younger, bigger, stronger and smarter dog. As you may see the Lapponian herder always won the fights while the Dachshund used to pick them! And when trying to pick that last fight, he caused himself a heart attack! And despite how difficult he could be as a dog, we do miss him!

 

Anyway back to the two stupid dogs a female Dachshund and the Lapponian herder. The female Dachshund has a thing for riding along in the car, and if she's not allowed to go with us, for some reason example the weather is too hot, too cold, or we're just planning to be gone for a very long time and they can't stay in the car all that time, she goes pretty mad. And has a tendency to ignore the person who denied her that ride! And she does'nt like stranger either, especially if she's in the car. She has actually bit, or more like snapped at people whoom she finds ”unworthy” to enter her car! She usually doesn't snap or bite at all. If there is a person she doesen't like in the house, she walks to her caretakers' desk in his office, and barks for houers!

 

The Lapponian herder is the smartest dog I have ever encountered. He used to run away and take walks on his own, chase cars, cyclists or whatever crossed his way...........So we built him a fence, since the other dogs seemed to behave. A real ”fort knox” we built just for him, to keep him inside! Anyway he was the only dog who always managed to break out! You could turn your back on him for a second or two, and he would just be gone. And when you discovered that he suddenly was on the wrong side of the fence. You called for him! But no! He didn't want to come so he used to take off, and you had to chase him! But it took you too long to get out of ”Fort knox” so he was gone when you finally had made it out! He was very sly too, don't think he'd let you know where he got out, if you were looking at him he just played along... until you turned around a lost your focus on him.....

 

And these stupid dogs has become more stupid since the loss of the old dog! The have started howling! Especially if you leave them alone! It's almost as if they are afraid that the old dog will start haunting the house and don't want to be left alone! This Easter Eve when we came home from town, they ran outside, stoped by the flagstaff and started howling together in a choir! At the flagstaff! For absolute no reason at all!

When you are fpr example calling for the cats and accidently stretch the vocals, they can suddenly accompany you! And yesterday I gave them frozen bones with meat. Which they usually just throw themself over and almost swallows. But this time the Lapponian herder went off digging his one down and digged up an older half dry and rutten bone to feast on instead! While the dachshund put hers in the sun and waited for it to defrost (never seen her do that before!). After which she hides in inte the grass, and I will not notice until I run it over with the lawn mower...(it was pretty high grass)......WHY! That's just so stupid why not eat it while it's still fresh and tasty!

 

 

Oh! Yeeeees! Sleeep! Sleeeep! My little assassin........................................



Sooooon! You will grow to be a fine killer.....and mice will fear thy name.......!

And Today's sensation is the Apple-blossoms............................




Which has a pink healthy shade.................



and not to forget about the Pear-blossoms (is that even a word, it appears as if there is no Swedish word for it, so I had to make that one up! but I think you get my point?........)



It's funny how you claim to love the winter best when it is winter, and the autumn when it's autumn and etc. And now when it's finally summer, it is the summer that is precious to me. So I guess it is the present that matters, all the time...............

Finally the summer has arrived here in sweden.....................




With Cherry-Blossoms and Bleeding hearts in full bloom...............



and the fresh scent of summer in the morning when the sun is yet to arise and the dew remains as a veil over the landscape..........

Rain, mist, wet but not cold. That's how our day started! So we decided to go shopping instead. I decided to buy a pair of new shoes, since my mom forbid me to take my usual shoes on, meaning my favorites! they fit so good, so light, and so easy to put on, when they have no shoelaces. but the rasons she forbid me to use them were that they are so dirty, and they have big holes on many places, they are worn out, and I usually wear them outside so of course they are "worn out". but they are my favourites and it hurts me the most to get rid of them. But I did find an equal pair of shoes, with no shoelaces, very cheap price, that's always a good thing. They look a bit boyish though, but it goes perfectly along with my androgynous life stile anyway.... so soon I'm going to take my first walk in my new shoes!=).......................................

I'm sitting here at noon, writing a rather pointless entry I would say! because I really don't have anything of value to tell you today. It's the day of Ascension of Jesus, and I'm all alone. Emmanuel arrived back to our town of birth yesterday. I sent her an SMS, but she hasn'nt aswered it yet. Grasnd má, came home today too. she's spent three weeks at a short term home close to the hospital. she wasn't feeling very well so they sent her there so they could run some tests on her. But now she's better so she's come home this morning. I spent the eavning cleaning her place yesterday. After I'd visited my other grandmother, the one on father's side. She had her 76:th birtday yesterday. that's about all I have to say, I'm going to wait and see if Emmanuel will answer my SMS or is still sleeping. (I doubt the latter one). I bet she's up enjoying the company of her family, which she hasn't visited since the first week of January this year.

however today I plan to visit grand má in her "real home", apply for work, as I do every day! but first....LUNCH! Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!

OH YES! Today I have fianally made my decision regarding vhat type of digital video camera I going to buy (some day eventually) this ONE ! as you see it's only about 5000 SEK, which is about 511,11 € (EURO), 651,44 $ (USD) , 443,67 £ (GBP), 60120,48 ¥ (JPY). As you see it's pretty much for an unemployed girl on twenty-four who still haven't found a good job, but she's working on it! She had an interview today........! Anyway she's saved money for this one so, just a little more saving and the camera is as good as mine. I should add though the extra insurance for clumsiness on 945 SEK (you can check out yourself Here what this amount is in foreign excange) And then I need a camera tripod for 299 SEK. And maybe another photographic lens of some kind...! But I'm on my way so lets SAVE, SAVE, SAVE!

Today I have been collecting barbed wire

Now my arms are acing, my hands are on fire

It is a work that's very sweaty and very hot

Since you can't take your long sleeves off

because if you do

your arms will look like world war two

You wind them up in neat balls of wire alongside the fence

All is to go, you keep your face and work in silence

 

Just a thousand and one more yards to go

but I guess life is tough, you know

 

It never let you have things your way

You will wrestle and try to make it obey

but it will just bend over and twist

Reach though your sleeve and tear your wrist

which will make you cry and awfully pissed

It will swing to you face and you'll be kissed

by the sharp barbed wire that will rip your lip

No Thank you! I 'd rather pass that trip

 

For a moment I thought we were enemies sworn

I hate that bloddy wires guts in to my very bone

but then I met that nasty hawthorn

Now I know how little I've known

Hawthorn that has conspired with the fence

making you sweat and the situation tense

and when you see the whole picture you'll sense

that what you're gonna need is an act of violence

 

You'll saw, you'll cut, you'll pull and you'll snatch

but they are buddies like the kind of perfect match

They will stick with eachother through thick and thin

a bloddy stubborn enemy who will tear up your skin

it almost breaks my heart

to rip those lovers apart

and the end of the fence seems as sent from above

'cause barbed wire and hawthorn makes true love

 

and then I am all over black and blue

I guess I look a bit like world war two

 

© Linus Piknik